The last one probably belongs in the other blog, but right now it feels very descriptive. I seem to keep losing old friends. I'm still not discounting the possibility of having too much going on or some other reason, but two months of unreplied messages and emails is a bad sign. I know we're none of us the same people we once were, but does that mean we can't even stay acquainted anymore? These are the people who I knew best and who knew me best. We could all take off our public faces and hang out and be ourselves without worrying about accidentally offending someone or being offended. We trusted each other.
Now the trust is gone, and in some cases has even been replaced by crazy amounts of passive aggressive hostility. It hurts like hell when someone whom your first instinct is to trust deliberately sets you up to embarrass yourself and does their best to idirectly make you feel worthless.
Sigh... I promised myself this blog wasn't going to become a dump for negative thoughts and emotions, so I'm going to stop myself before I really get going. In order to keep to that promise however, there may not be very many posts for a while.
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